Christmas List

*TWILIGHT ECLIPSE DVD :D
http://www.amazon.com/Twilight-Saga-Eclipse-Two-Disc-Special/dp/B001UV4XFG/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1286508952&sr=8-1


*Clothes

*Sheet set. 600+ thread count (high as possible). Sateen is favorite. Brown or blue color. Similar to this:
http://www.kohls.com/kohlsStore/bedandbath/sheets/threadcount/600plus/PRD~c4090/Luxury+Collection+600Thread+Count+Sateen+Sheet+Set.jsp

*Twilight Calendar
http://www.amazon.com/Twilight-Saga-Eclipse-16-Month-Calendar/dp/B003GDQ3SQ/ref=pd_sxp_grid_i_0_0
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*The Beatles Rockband for PS3
http://www.amazon.com/Beatles-Rock-Band-Playstation-3/dp/B001TOMQRG/ref=sr_1_7?s=gateway&ie=UTF8&qid=1285124257&sr=8-7

*RockBand Country Pack for PS3
http://www.amazon.com/gp/offer-listing/B002AO7DTK/ref=olp_prime_new?ie=UTF8&shipPromoFilter=1&sort=sip&me=&seller=&condition=new

I'm in Maine!

"It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more." - Dumbledore

I suffer from intense anxiety. I'm not sure I've really been diagnosed, though I've been prescribed anti-anxiety meds before...to no avail. I dumped my psychiatrist a long time ago, weaned myself off of every anti-depressant and anti-anxiety med, and haven't seen a therapist in about a year. Lately I've been getting back into an incredibly anxious state of mind. I don't even want to try and stop it. It's just a part of life. Like everything else...

We are all going to die. Everyone. Everybody dies. You have no idea when it will be. Where it will be. How it will be. What will your last words be? How will you be remembered? Who will be devastated? Who will care?

I don't believe in Heaven. I don't believe in Hell as it is described in the media. I believe in ghosts...so how does that work?

I'm terrified... I obviously want to know what happens so I know what to expect. I want to be religious and believe in a happy afterlife, but I don't believe. I can't help it.

I worry about people in my life. I worry about everything. I always figured I inherited that from my mom, and maybe that's true. But I also have this insane instinct. I feel like I know too much. Oh, and I think that it's just about time for the apocalypse LOL.

...but that's just me... :)

I have a headache...

First of all, TEAM CONAN. Conan has been a sort of "celebrity" crush and idol of mine for years now. I feel personally insulted and hurt by the position he's being put in and what they're doing to the Tonight Show franchise.

Jay Leno? He's alright. I've watched him from time to time while waiting for Conan's show. Definitely over him, though. Put him on earlier or something. Before the old folk get to bed, they're the only ones watching him nowadays, anyway...

What a fantastic gig that would be. Hosting a late night talk show. Definitely a big-if not the biggest- fantasy of mine. I'd love to get into writing comedy, but every time I try coming up with original ideas, I freeze up. I'm handy with the witty one liners once in a while though. At least I think I am...crap...

Anyway...NBC...morons...still love "30 rock"..."the office" is headed downhill without at least some sexual tension to fall back on....David Tennant! He's coming to hollywood to be in a show on NBC! So weird. Sounds like a horrible concept for a show, but if anyone can make it work it'd be Tennant. To go from RSC to Hollywood is kind of disgusting though. Oh well.

I'm tired. And sick. G'night.