Christmas List

*TWILIGHT ECLIPSE DVD :D
http://www.amazon.com/Twilight-Saga-Eclipse-Two-Disc-Special/dp/B001UV4XFG/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1286508952&sr=8-1


*Clothes

*Sheet set. 600+ thread count (high as possible). Sateen is favorite. Brown or blue color. Similar to this:
http://www.kohls.com/kohlsStore/bedandbath/sheets/threadcount/600plus/PRD~c4090/Luxury+Collection+600Thread+Count+Sateen+Sheet+Set.jsp

*Twilight Calendar
http://www.amazon.com/Twilight-Saga-Eclipse-16-Month-Calendar/dp/B003GDQ3SQ/ref=pd_sxp_grid_i_0_0
*

*The Beatles Rockband for PS3
http://www.amazon.com/Beatles-Rock-Band-Playstation-3/dp/B001TOMQRG/ref=sr_1_7?s=gateway&ie=UTF8&qid=1285124257&sr=8-7

*RockBand Country Pack for PS3
http://www.amazon.com/gp/offer-listing/B002AO7DTK/ref=olp_prime_new?ie=UTF8&shipPromoFilter=1&sort=sip&me=&seller=&condition=new

I'm in Maine!

"It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more." - Dumbledore

I suffer from intense anxiety. I'm not sure I've really been diagnosed, though I've been prescribed anti-anxiety meds before...to no avail. I dumped my psychiatrist a long time ago, weaned myself off of every anti-depressant and anti-anxiety med, and haven't seen a therapist in about a year. Lately I've been getting back into an incredibly anxious state of mind. I don't even want to try and stop it. It's just a part of life. Like everything else...

We are all going to die. Everyone. Everybody dies. You have no idea when it will be. Where it will be. How it will be. What will your last words be? How will you be remembered? Who will be devastated? Who will care?

I don't believe in Heaven. I don't believe in Hell as it is described in the media. I believe in ghosts...so how does that work?

I'm terrified... I obviously want to know what happens so I know what to expect. I want to be religious and believe in a happy afterlife, but I don't believe. I can't help it.

I worry about people in my life. I worry about everything. I always figured I inherited that from my mom, and maybe that's true. But I also have this insane instinct. I feel like I know too much. Oh, and I think that it's just about time for the apocalypse LOL.

...but that's just me... :)

I have a headache...

First of all, TEAM CONAN. Conan has been a sort of "celebrity" crush and idol of mine for years now. I feel personally insulted and hurt by the position he's being put in and what they're doing to the Tonight Show franchise.

Jay Leno? He's alright. I've watched him from time to time while waiting for Conan's show. Definitely over him, though. Put him on earlier or something. Before the old folk get to bed, they're the only ones watching him nowadays, anyway...

What a fantastic gig that would be. Hosting a late night talk show. Definitely a big-if not the biggest- fantasy of mine. I'd love to get into writing comedy, but every time I try coming up with original ideas, I freeze up. I'm handy with the witty one liners once in a while though. At least I think I am...crap...

Anyway...NBC...morons...still love "30 rock"..."the office" is headed downhill without at least some sexual tension to fall back on....David Tennant! He's coming to hollywood to be in a show on NBC! So weird. Sounds like a horrible concept for a show, but if anyone can make it work it'd be Tennant. To go from RSC to Hollywood is kind of disgusting though. Oh well.

I'm tired. And sick. G'night.

Dear Santa...

Sorry. Need a place to write this all out, 'cause people keep asking what I want and I never have an answer.


Christmas Wish List:

-New Car. Not picky.
-Twilight series (hardcover)
-New cell phone. For texting. Pref Env3, blue.
-New jeans. Size? Huge. :)
-Winter coat. Pref a pea coat. Black.
-The new Harry Potter movie on DVD
-Pay off college debt ($20,000...give or take)
-"The Office" season 5.
-Cute, small, protective camera case. Camera is a nikon coolpix and it's teeny.
-All "Friends" seasons on DVD
-Headphones. Not ear buds or any kind that involves sticking the equipment into your ears, as that hurts and damages my poor vulnerable ear drums. Anything like THIS would be appropriate.
-New computer speakers.
-Cordless mouse for laptop. Preferably not too small. I hate really small mice.
-New headset with mic for computer.
-Deodorant! Maybe that Dove Ultimate stuff.
-Dove exfoliating bar soap.
-Face cream
-Comfy robe. Cotton or fluffy or something that isnt' velour or any other silly fabric.
-"30 Rock" on DVD. seasons 1-3
-"The Hangover" on DVD
-The recipe for Olive Garden's berry sangria. Also, a lifetime supply of OTB's sangria swirl margaritas.
-New underwear!
-New pillows. I always LOVE new pillows. <3


Okay, some of those weren't serious. But some were. So if you know of someone with extra money looking to spend on a random 22 year old chick, pass this list along. And highlight the "new car" and "student loans" parts.

hmm

I have so many goals. Well I don't know if you'd call them goals. I have so many...wishes...dreams...things I think I'd love to do. At least things I would love to try. There are farfetched goals (ie: host my own talk show) and more seemingly "mundane" goals such as becoming a housewife and mother. Not to say that there's anything easy or plain about being a mom because I personally think it's the toughest and most worthwhile job out there, but it's something I strongly believe that some people (not all, of course) persue just to hide from their other dreams. And someday when I do become a mom I hope I'm able to continue to persue a career and can look back on things I've done without regret.

So yes, my ultimate goal has always been to have kids. Do I want a child now? Absolutely freaking NO. Despite it being my ultimate goal, I respect the role enough to know it's going to consume my life, and I'm too selfish and completely NOT ready for that at all. There are other things I want to do. And you'd think I'd be able to find a job where I'm loving what I'm doing when there are so many things I'd like to do.

Best HP Movie Yet...Yayyy, It Didn't Suck =)

The sixth Harry Potter movie was by far the best!!!! This being said despite sitting next to a woman with a squirrel in her throat (well, I could only assume by the horrifying laughter she emitted every other minute for the 153 minute duration of the movie) who enjoyed eating peanuts (which I'm deathly allergic to) for half the movie. Just when I was about to say something, she put the peanuts away, but I still got the hives on my face and itchy eyes/nose/throat/everything. I need to remember to keep my epi-pen with me at all times..hmm..anyway....

BEST HP movie yet! This is the first one since Richard Harris' death where I didn't want to punch Dumbledore in the face! Michael Gambon actually created a likeable, funny, and true-to-the-book Dumbledore, so I could not complain. It actually made me care when Dumbledore dies (SNAPE KILLS DUMBLEDORE!). This was also the first one that didn't provide me with even one example of horrid acting. Usually Rupert Grint's annoying blah acting (that's really the only way to describe it) gets me down or I'm making a face at Emma Watson's lack of subtlety with her over-the-top stage acting, but they really didn't give Grint much acting to do, and Watson has toned it down significantly. Hooray! Also, they made sure to give most of the more...well...legendary actors their due screen time. Julie Walters, Maggie Smith, Alan Rickman (love)...etc....every move and/or facial expression...perfect. And I'm a sucker for Snape/Alan Rickman. Nothing Rickman can do is wrong. And Snape is the best character no matter what. So there.

The story didn't seem rushed or anything. It probably helped that I didn't reread the book before I saw the movie, so I couldn't get too pissed about missing pieces. I just felt that the story was paced well and it was easy to follow, which hasn't been the case for the last couple of HP movies.

Soundtrack sucked. I think. I didn't notice it, and the few times I did it wasn't awe-inspiring like previous soundtracks. But it also didn't distract me from the actual movie, unlike previous soundtracks. So take that for what it's worth.

The movie did focus a lot on relationships. Which, hey, who doesn't focus on relationships when they're 16 years old like the characters in the movie? The only thing that sucked about this was the fact that the theatre I was in was chock-full of friggin' 16 year olds. Therefore, my brain was brutally murdered with the amount of giggling I heard tonight. Every time one character looked at another or kissed another or said one friggin' word to another I heard a chorus of high pitched giggles that reminded me of the torture of a middle school dance. I mean, don't get me wrong, the acting and writing in the movie made the teenage romance very entertaining, I chuckled lots. But for some reason (perhaps I'm bitter) I couldn't stand to hear the giggles that likely produced gushy diary or -worse- livejournal reviews of the movie and how it coincided with the writer's teenage lust.

Anywho, go see the movie. It was the best HP movie so far and I can't wait to see it again...quietly and alone in my home. hooray!

Why Didn't We Have These at Westfield? ;)

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Bunnies!

So anyone who knows me well knows I loooove bunnies. Well, my buddy Adam likes to make fun of this interest of mine, saying that he will kill bunnies. He likes to taunt me. So tonight while he was at work, my friends and I took a bunch of pictures of various bunnies that I printed out and we put them ALL OVER HIS ROOM. Like, everywhere. In his drawers, in his fridge, in his pillowcases, we covered his computer mouse, at the bottom of his laundry basket, everything...there are some places I can't mention because he hasn't found them yet.

Photo Album with Pictures of the Event (along with other pics)

Vote for my Boyfriend!

OK, if you know me, you know that Brad and I have been together for a good 4 years now (that's even longer than how long my actual boyfriend Brian & I have been dating!). You need to vote for him as ACM Entertainer of the year!





Thanks, dolls. :)
My lovey Brad & I appreciate your support! ;)

"I think it's hilarious! Even if it's about Obama! But I'm not racist or anything..."

I get so frustrated and annoyed when people say something completely racist and then insist "But I'm not a racist..."

Yes you are! Everyone is! At least a little bit. Unless you have 100% understanding of every culture out there, you have some bit of racism inside even if you're not a hardcore KKK devotee. It's just a part of OUR culture and our human nature.

So shut up, you're racist.





(btw, the inspiration for this post comes from my persuasive communication course, where we discussed this story: http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2009-02/21/content_10859686.htm. Quite interesting if you ask me.)

Alcohol Should Be Banned.

/\ I want one so bad.



I am filled with so much hate right now. I want to quit my job soooooo badly you have NOOOOOOOOO idea. I feel like I'm being threatened right now by people I wrote up last night (listen, don't walk into my freaking room drunk at 3:30am by accident. it's not that hard) and I'm so mad and upset and I'm so done.

But I can't quit because I want to go for an RD job after college.

But they went above me and all jumped their 300+ lb selves on my ceiliing to wake me up and started talking shit about me. I went to bed at 6:30am after writing people up for 3 hours. So they wake me up at 10:30 as their revenge.


In other news I'm scared and sad and can't get back to sleep. And I have to work again tonight.


Alcohol should be banned.

Except for when I want a glass of wine, because God knows I couldn't get through this job without those glasses of wine or grande sangria swirl margaritas (with a sugar rim). (see the small version above)

I Love Spending Money...

I bought myself a present I can't afford! Hooray!

It's the cutest little orange 8 GB ipod nano. I figure it's a gift for my heart, seeing as I dont' have a functioning ipod anymore and without an ipod, I don't exercise as much as I used to. So the logical thing to do was splurge and spend 100+ dollars on the adorable little thing. I'm still figuring out all the cool things you can do with it...yay!

My Material Guy

In every relationships' fight or break-up, one of the people (generally the male in a heterosexual relationship) says something really dumb.

In a discussion about whether we should be together or not, this is what my special someone had to say:

Folky812: it's ok

Folky812: you've already made sacrifices

Folky812: i've made sacrifices

Folky812: we've both made sacrifices to try to make this work

"Brian": What about all my stuff?



...priorities, right? ;)

Random Complaint.

Oh nooo I have to sing solo at tomorrow's singing rehearsallll. I don't wanna :(

Hmmm...

"Fireplaces, eggnog, Makers Mark in the lodge, love on a bear rug: no comment"


...where would I be without the help of my professor in writing a song about Winter.

Cue the awkward theme music...

Put things into perspective..

A professor of philosophy stood before his class with some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks about two inches in diameter. He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was full.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly and watched as the pebbles rolled into the open areas between the rocks. The professor then asked the students again if the jar was full. They chuckled and agreed that it was indeed full this time.

The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. The sand filled the remaining open areas of the jar. “Now,” said the professor, “I want you to recognize that this jar signifies your life. The rocks are the truly important things, such as family, health and relationships. If all else was lost and only the rocks remained, your life would still be meaningful. The pebbles are the other things that matter in your life, such as work or school. The sand signifies the remaining “small stuff” and material possessions.

If you put sand into the jar first, there is no room for the rocks or the pebbles. The same can be applied to your lives. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are truly important.

Pay attention to the things in life that are critical to your happiness and well-being. Take time to get medical check-ups, play with your children, go for a run, write your grandmother a letter. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, or fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first – things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just pebbles and sand.

You're kidding me, right? Growww Upppp

HAHA what a dumbass. Some psychotic lady with too much time on her hands (which is odd cause she should be off peeing with her kid on her lap) decided to act like a middle schooler and anonymously comment on my aunt's fabulous blog. She basically said that my aunt shouldn't have her dream job or take time out of her day to, uh, I don't know, USE THE BATHROOM, because she should be taking care of her two sons and her adoptive daughter, Lucy.

Soooo stuuuupiddd.

Anyway, just had to rant about it here to avoid freaking out via an angry comment or anything. It's remarkable how I thought jealous, insecure people would stop doing things like this in, hmm, MIDDLE SCHOOL. Oy...

The Song that Rachel Wrote About Me. :-D

I gotta tell janice to stay awayyyy
i had a fluffernutter todayyyy todayyy todayyayayayayayay
if i breathe on you would you die?
if i breathed on you would you die?
stick an epi pen in your thigh in your thigh in your thigh
and save your life

I gotta tell janice she needs to knowww
She drinks her sangria like a pro (repeat)
drunk or sober you can be cool
drunk or sober you can be cool
just don't drink too much or you'll need a loo (repeat)

tell me tell me Doctor Who
compares to what janice can do
she does what nobody else can
david tennant wants to know
why he ever let her go
he says that brian's a lucky man
he's the man (repeat)

i gotta tell janice i wrote her a songggggg
i'm sure when i tell her she'll sing alonggg (repeat)

when you hang with janice there's a risk
of meeting brit boys with a lisp
and if it's new years you might get a kiss get a kiss get a kiss
yeah and that's the gisttt
of janiceee

janice rocks janice rocks
janice rocks janice rocks my socks
janice rocks my socks.

YAYAYAYA

And so...the time has come...

I can't believe this is the last day we're in London. The last chance to walk around and see the sights. The last chance to check out the London restaurants, museums, guys... ;)

The last time I'll go to bed here and the last time I'll wake up here. The last time I'll get to hang out with my friends here. :( sad.

I'll miss...
The Feathers, my favorite pub here, and their cheap drinks and delicious chicken barbecue
seeing Buckingham Palace when I go off for a walk or run
Delicious bottles of sangria
Romero, the creepy-ass Russian kid who hogs the computers, leaving used tissues and bags of popcorn everywhere...HAHA just kidding. Won't miss him.
Rachel's songs about everyone.
pretty money
finding a coin on the ground means you could have found up to £2 (a $3 equivilent)
seeing celebrities everywhere
cheap, but breathtaking theatre
being hit on by creepers and running from them. especially the married ones.
the lack of trash barrels ont he streets, but somehow they manage to keep everything clean
everyone over here liking Doctor Who and not giving me weird looks when I express interest in it
sexy accents
toilet paper that doesn't come in rolls, but upside down tissue boxes
British Deal or No Deal
"Mind the gap!"
The unbelievably amazing London Underground, where the trains are frequent, comfortable, and clean

...so much more...